The combination of my personality, strengths and weaknesses and my family\u2019s dysfunction lead me to handle life\u2019s difficulties and disappointments alone. \u00a0Independent. \u00a0Self reliant, my mom would say. \u00a0In truth, it really boiled down to the fact that I did not know how to ask for help. \u00a0In fact, the thought of asking for help never occurred to me. \u00a0And I have lived through so many difficulties on my own because of it. \u00a0I began to step out of this pattern a bit in college, but only out of desperation. \u00a0My scholarship required me to maintain a 3.0 GPA and my first semester I turned out the worst set of grades in my life. \u00a0I was shocked, school had never been this hard, and terrified, how would I pay for school if lost the scholarship?<\/p>\n
Thank God for Father Burns, my religious studies instructor, who gave me some study advise that I used faithfully, beneficially, the rest of my years in school. \u00a0And thank You, God, for making that first try at asking for help so easy and fruitful. \u00a0It hasn’t always gone that way. \u00a0And it still doesn’t always go well. \u00a0But, when I remember, for it still doesn’t come to me to ask, and I seek help and help comes, it brings great feelings of love and connectedness.<\/p>\n
My daughter was born 4 weeks early and very tiny. \u00a0Feeding her was challenging for she would often fall asleep after just a few minutes of nursing. \u00a0Her first doctor check up revealed she was not gaining the weight she needed to be. \u00a0This set off such a panic in me, as it would most mothers, that again, in desperation, I sought out help. \u00a0Thank You, God, for my mom and the women of Trinity Bible Church*, who swooped right in with meals, house cleaning, nursing tips and numerous other acts of kindness. \u00a0At the time, I was anxious, exhausted and terrified I would not be able to meet the needs of my precious daughter. \u00a0Looking back, I cannot think or write about these first weeks of motherhood without tears of joy. \u00a0The faces of these wonderful women who came along side me and got me to a steady place will forever be so very dear.<\/p>\n
Surely that is what the Lord was hoping for when He instructed us to “carry each other’s burdens” (Gal 6:2 NIV). \u00a0I can’t help but imagine His joy as His daughters came along side the struggling one. \u00a0Did He beam pride over each of them? \u00a0Did He whisper “thank you” to their hearts? \u00a0When these women meet Him face to face one day, will He also relive with joy those acts of kindness and tell them how grateful He was that they cared for me so well? \u00a0Yes, yes and yes.<\/p>\n
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* Olivia, Nannette, Angi, Mary Kay, Paula, Trish, Barb, Sandy …. what angels you were to me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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